last night was one of the best evenings ive had with my husband....
for dinner we had stir fry with chinese noodles fried in soy sauce & teriyaki.... mmm so delicious. one of our favorite meals. then we watched a movie, 'trust the man', now.. i loved that movie! its one of my favorites.... for you girls out there, you'd love this movie. its kinda a chick flick but its got a lot of great humor in it, jon really enjoyed it as well. and for the rest of the evening is probably tmi ;p
we've been recovering finally from a long month of sickness. theres been this horrible viruses going around all of washington state. especially when i work at a school, it really makes me a lot more vulnerable to sicknesses. well, there had been some schools that actually had to close for the day due to so many absentees and not enough subsitutes. it was really crazy, so much sickness.. i got sick 3 times in a month, jon got sick several times as well. but now i think its finally dying away, at least i hope so! i'm sick of being sick...
well, i'm off to work now.. just wanted to drop a quick note and say hi to everyone. ;p
this week's episode was just... so filled with emotions. yeah, it was real emotional. i love greys.. it's a great show. it's so filled with real life emotions.. its like, things that really do happen in life. its not some superficial show. anyway... i truly thought this was great. (its from the show)
No one believes that their life will turn out just kind of okay. We all think we are going to be great. And from the day we decide to be [surgeons], we are filled with expectation. Great expectations of who we will be, where we will go. We all think we’re going to be great and we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren’t met. But sometimes our expectations sell us short. Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You got to wonder why we cling to our expectations, because the expected is just what keeps us steady. Standing. Still. The expected's just the beginning, the unexpected is what changes our lives.
... life is short....yeah.
i guess the show is impacting me a bit more deeper than usual lately.. with george's dad dying, the amish girl & her best friend, the marathon guy who got dehydrated, and stuff.. because i have not talked about this yet.... my brother almost lost his leg a few weeks ago.
he got in an extremely bad snowboarding accident. his fault.. he tried to jump a 30 feet gap. he was rushed to the emergency room the night before new years eve. he broke his leg... he has already had problems with his knee and several surgeries have already been performed on his knee (mostly from soccer) and he really tore up his knee again. all of the screws and pins that were in his knee were busted out. (most of them were under his kneecap). a normal person's pressure is at or around 15 (pressure is fluids) and his was at 99. they had to cut open his leg to drain the fluids out. if they didnt do that, he would have lost his leg that night. he pretty much shattered his leg. my mom called and told me about it .... for some reason, my stomach formed into a knot. its just... when you love someone that much, especailly a family member and a tradegy happens- its not easy to deal with. i couldnt go to see him for a few days, i was really afraid to see him. that was realy selfish of me.. finally i got a friend to go with me. a truly good friend of mine. we went to see him.. i got him a little teddy bear. when i saw him, all hooked up to a machine.. his leg covered in metal and equipments and such.. it really hit me. i only stayed a few minutes... gave him the bear, told him i loved him... i left. and i sobbed and sobbed.. it was horrible. my baby brother.. that's my baby brother in there. i just couldnt handle it.. they flew him to another crisis hospital up in seattle. and now, its been almost a month. 5 surgeries has been performed on him. they finally sent him home two days ago and hes now recovering. they say he'll be on crutches for a year and maybe more.... i'm just extremely relieved he is alive and he has his leg still. but yeah.. it was intense. *sigh*...
i know my marriage isn't perfect & we do have problems... but, i never once thought it wasn't worth it, it never crossed my mind. then, what do you say when your spouse tells you that they have days when they wake up feeling like it isn't worth it....
See my cousin, stephanie up there? yeah she just got married last thursday. no one knew about the plans until like a few days before the wedding. they decided to get married at the courthouse... i was really upset because i knew something was wrong. this is NOT the Stephanie I know... the Stephanie I know is a romantic woman, she would NOT get married in a courthouse, oh wait... she just did. anyway, she married Daniel... two years on & off boyfriend, they did horrible things to eachother: cheated on eachother, told other people awful lies about eachother, it was a crazy relationship... everyone was waiting for them to finally break up for good. and now they're married?! well, the thing is that he decided to go into the army and is pretty much leaving in a few days for boot camp and they.. i quote"wanted to get married before they left because they love eachother so very much" unquote by stephanie. *shrugs* i dunno... i'm kind of disappointed because i know that this is not the Stephanie I know. they also plan to move to new york together after hes done with his training, wtf, new york?! lol.. well i do have to say it might be a good idea for her to move away from her mother who is a controlling, obsessive, pessimistic woman! i love aunt linda, i do.. but stephanies really influenced by her and that's not good. but new york, gosh.. thats far away! the other 'weird' thing is that on her myspace, she practically is on there 24/7 and she has not updated pictures of her wedding or even information about being married.. i would imagine any woman would be so thrilled to announce it to the whole world of the news that almost every woman dreams of. yeah, huh?! anyway, so that's the update with my family. it's crazy....
